I write...feelings

How am I supposed to do this?
Write what you feel...
How do I do that?
The only feeling I have is ill

Don't bother
It's what I always hear
Satan, I know it is
Whispering in my ear

No one wants this
No one even cares
Putting things in my head
And all it leaves me is scared

Even though I know
I know he is wrong
But he is still here
Singing the same old song

How do I do this?
How do I make it stop
When all I want to do
Is not make the whole thing flop

So much time
So many years
All I feel
My heart full of fears

I want to know
To know that I am good
I want to be able
To see what they say they could